CRYING DAY~

5/11/2011
This date was so hard for me to face..its painful u knows..this time he said that he want to bear back down from our relationship..he said not because of me but this is because of him ..he need to settle up his life first and there's so much thing in his mind..why don't he message me and tell me about his problem first so that i can help him bah at least he appreciates me and show me that I'm his girlfriend bah...
it was so sudden for me to know this..because for few days we didn't playing message or calling then we haven't fight to each other..i just follow the flow he brings up..i try to understand his self but when i do everything ady he said this to me...ouch!!its like a stab wound owh!!my heart going to broke into a pieces!i cant accept it owh!!
all was so sudden for me,all that i have planned already has crumble!I'm sad owh,but how about he..did he feel that same things like me?
i cant even close my eyes to sleep because every time i want to close my eyes my tears will keep falling down..its too hard and so difficult for me!!my eyes also turn to red n swelling in the morning..
I'm going to work and pretend to be OK and i don't want to cry again but i cannot endure its owh..luckily my doctor have not notice it otherwise He said to me this 'gwen why you extra happy ar today and you looks like a gangster'..how happy i am when he said like that because i don't want them to know that I'm not OK at all!!
I have try to love him as much as i can but he do this to me...how stupid am i looks right now!!keep crying and waiting for nothing owh!!
I love him so much and will always support him bha!argghhhhhhh..I'm going to crazy owh like this..this is such a weird feeling that i ever had!!!
i want to cry out loud owh!!Scream Like I'm a crazy women!!DAMN!