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Whats on my Mind~

Hey guys!suddenly I'm thinking of this,about whats going on to our life's right now..You all know what we need to set up our mind in a positive ways so that every thing's gonna goes smoothly as we plan..I'm a weak girl/women and I'm not strong enough to face all the temptation that have been attacking me in my life..But when we learn to pray and believe in God that He will helps us We will be transform and be extraordinary person even you're only an ordinary person..We cant expect what God has prepared for as..Our future is bright in Him!Nothing impossible in Him! ;)

Nah today I'm still thinking of you again..
I still keep your message which you've sent me..
~Will you,miss Gwen caparanga@Gwenny be my girlfriend :)?
~Yeay!Now u r officially my girl..No one can take u away from me..hehehe!MwwwaaahhxXxie!


I miss every moment we're together owh!
I'm missing when we playing together and then u'll keep disturbing me!

"Cry"


I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
'cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truly
But at the time it didn't mean a thing


[Chorus:]
My mind is gone, I'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears I'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry


Did it happen when we first kissed?
'cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe 'cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I should've never let you hold me baby
Maybe why I'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Can't figure out how you stole my heart


[Chorus]


How did I get here with you, I'll never know?
I never meant to let it get so, personal
And after all I tried to do, to stay away from loving you
I'm broken heart and I can't let you know
And I won't let it show
You won't see me cry


[x2]
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry


All my life...

CRYING DAY~

5/11/2011
This date was so hard for me to face..its painful u knows..this time he said that he want to bear back down from our relationship..he said not because of me but this is because of him ..he need to settle up his life first and there's so much thing in his mind..why don't he message me and tell me about his problem first so that i can help him bah at least he appreciates me and show me that I'm his girlfriend bah...
it was so sudden for me to know this..because for few days we didn't playing message or calling then we haven't fight to each other..i just follow the flow he brings up..i try to understand his self but when i do everything ady he said this to me...ouch!!its like a stab wound owh!!my heart going to broke into a pieces!i cant accept it owh!!
all was so sudden for me,all that i have planned already has crumble!I'm sad owh,but how about he..did he feel that same things like me?
i cant even close my eyes to sleep because every time i want to close my eyes my tears will keep falling down..its too hard and so difficult for me!!my eyes also turn to red n swelling in the morning..
I'm going to work and pretend to be OK and i don't want to cry again but i cannot endure its owh..luckily my doctor have not notice it otherwise He said to me this 'gwen why you extra happy ar today and you looks like a gangster'..how happy i am when he said like that because i don't want them to know that I'm not OK at all!!
I have try to love him as much as i can but he do this to me...how stupid am i looks right now!!keep crying and waiting for nothing owh!!
I love him so much and will always support him bha!argghhhhhhh..I'm going to crazy owh like this..this is such a weird feeling that i ever had!!!
i want to cry out loud owh!!Scream Like I'm a crazy women!!DAMN!