Sooooo Sad!

Today my dad went to Kota kinabalu then tomorrow he will abroad to Africa again owh maybe for 2 years..
I feel sad because of its not enough 4 me being with him together only for a few days oh..but what to do all i can do is be grateful for everything's..My dad have gave me some advised,Hurmmmmmmm i think not some but more than that oh!Dad i'm gonna miss you damn much more and when i miss you i will cry again like a baby who needs a breastfeeding from his/her mother!

ButterFLy MOdeL!!

I Love butterfly!Really really Like it!its nice and beautiful!

Whats on my Mind~

Hey guys!suddenly I'm thinking of this,about whats going on to our life's right now..You all know what we need to set up our mind in a positive ways so that every thing's gonna goes smoothly as we plan..I'm a weak girl/women and I'm not strong enough to face all the temptation that have been attacking me in my life..But when we learn to pray and believe in God that He will helps us We will be transform and be extraordinary person even you're only an ordinary person..We cant expect what God has prepared for as..Our future is bright in Him!Nothing impossible in Him! ;)

Nah today I'm still thinking of you again..
I still keep your message which you've sent me..
~Will you,miss Gwen caparanga@Gwenny be my girlfriend :)?
~Yeay!Now u r officially my girl..No one can take u away from me..hehehe!MwwwaaahhxXxie!


I miss every moment we're together owh!
I'm missing when we playing together and then u'll keep disturbing me!

"Cry"


I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
'cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truly
But at the time it didn't mean a thing


[Chorus:]
My mind is gone, I'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears I'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry


Did it happen when we first kissed?
'cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe 'cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I should've never let you hold me baby
Maybe why I'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Can't figure out how you stole my heart


[Chorus]


How did I get here with you, I'll never know?
I never meant to let it get so, personal
And after all I tried to do, to stay away from loving you
I'm broken heart and I can't let you know
And I won't let it show
You won't see me cry


[x2]
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry


All my life...

CRYING DAY~

5/11/2011
This date was so hard for me to face..its painful u knows..this time he said that he want to bear back down from our relationship..he said not because of me but this is because of him ..he need to settle up his life first and there's so much thing in his mind..why don't he message me and tell me about his problem first so that i can help him bah at least he appreciates me and show me that I'm his girlfriend bah...
it was so sudden for me to know this..because for few days we didn't playing message or calling then we haven't fight to each other..i just follow the flow he brings up..i try to understand his self but when i do everything ady he said this to me...ouch!!its like a stab wound owh!!my heart going to broke into a pieces!i cant accept it owh!!
all was so sudden for me,all that i have planned already has crumble!I'm sad owh,but how about he..did he feel that same things like me?
i cant even close my eyes to sleep because every time i want to close my eyes my tears will keep falling down..its too hard and so difficult for me!!my eyes also turn to red n swelling in the morning..
I'm going to work and pretend to be OK and i don't want to cry again but i cannot endure its owh..luckily my doctor have not notice it otherwise He said to me this 'gwen why you extra happy ar today and you looks like a gangster'..how happy i am when he said like that because i don't want them to know that I'm not OK at all!!
I have try to love him as much as i can but he do this to me...how stupid am i looks right now!!keep crying and waiting for nothing owh!!
I love him so much and will always support him bha!argghhhhhhh..I'm going to crazy owh like this..this is such a weird feeling that i ever had!!!
i want to cry out loud owh!!Scream Like I'm a crazy women!!DAMN!

Be careful to whom you give your heart because when you give your heart to someone,  you’re not only giving that person the right to love you back but also the power to hurt you.

Hey hey hey you you!!
Mizs to update my blog hehe..


Today My feeling is not good at all i'm having conflicts with my emotion!keep thinking in a negative ways!what the hell is this ar..i dont like this kind of feeling owh!


Gonna say this la 'Gwen cheers up n think positive,set your mind'~
I'm stress and need someone to talk about but he is buzy with his all stuff there..


When i need you,will you be there 4 me??
when i'm sad will you let me cry on your shoulder?
when i'm alone will you accompany and comfort me?
when i miss you,did you miss me too?
Prove it to me that you love me bha!!show it to me!
Dont make me keep asking you becoz it will make you bored bha!
I hope you can understand me this is because I Love you!

~Laughter is the Best Medicine~

THE HEALTH BENEFITS OF HUMOR AND LAUGHTER

Humor is infectious. The sound of roaring laughter is far more contagious than any cough, sniffle, or sneeze. When laughter is shared, it binds people together and increases happiness and intimacy. In addition to the domino effect of joy and amusement, laughter also triggers healthy physical changes in the body. Humor and laughter strengthen your immune system, boost your energy, diminish pain, and protect you from the damaging effects of stress. Best of all, this priceless medicine is fun, free, and easy to use.

Laughter is good for your health

• Laughter relaxes the whole body. A good, hearty laugh relieves physical tension and stress, leaving your muscles relaxed for up to 45 minutes after.
• Laughter boosts the immune system. Laughter decreases stress hormones and increases immune cells and infection-fighting antibodies, thus improving your resistance to disease.
• Laughter triggers the release of endorphins, the body’s natural feel-good chemicals. Endorphins promote an overall sense of well-being and can even temporarily relieve pain.
• Laughter protects the heart. Laughter improves the function of blood vessels and increases blood flow, which can help protect you against a heart attack and other cardiovascular problems.

Laughing with others is more powerful than laughing alone

Shared laughter is one of the most effective tools for keeping relationships fresh and exciting. All emotional sharing builds strong and lasting relationship bonds, but sharing laughter and play adds joy, vitality, and resilience. And humor is a powerful and effective way to heal resentments, disagreements, and hurts. Laughter unites people during difficult times.

Using humor and laughter in relationships allows you to:

• Be more spontaneous. Humor gets you out of your head and away from your troubles.
• Let go of defensiveness. Laughter helps you forget judgments, criticisms, and doubts.
• Release inhibitions. Your fear of holding back and holding on are set aside.
• Express your true feelings. Deeply felt emotions are allowed to rise to the surface.

~SURVIVOR CAMP~

1ST DAY (19.08.2011)
Nah,today is the day of our survivor camp at Teluk Manggis Ulu Langat,cheras Selangor..Kami sampai sana petang sudah ni,jadi we pasang khemah jak la then take bath at the river there.. after that we play masak2 hehe..Yang x syoknya ni malam2 hujan lebat ni time tgh masak2 lagi tu baru kami makanpun x dapat menikmati..then time tu ada kilat menyambar d tiang elektrik punyala menakutkan..huhu..Our khemahpun masuk air owh,punyala teruk hehe..malam2 kami tidur d van,Tapi syukurla xda apa2 juga perkara yg buruk terjadi ni..TQ God...


2ND DAY (20.08.2011)
We wake up at 8am and get ready to cook 4 our breakfast..Nah,saya masak Maggi Indomie ni,tapikan hampir2 tu hot water jatuh d kaki sa owh,.syukur x kena ni,huhu..Selepas semuanya selesai makan n mengemas kami p bersiap mo p hiking (jungle tracking) sana air terjun sungai Lopo..
Dalam perjalanan p sana punyala syok tapikan banyak Pacat ah..geli n takut juga 2 pacat gigit sa,nasib xda juga sa kena gigit..hehe..First time ba tengok pacat ni..x saya kenal dengan ni pacat n lintah owh..hehe..
Sampai2 d air terjun tu punyala best ni air dia,ada Fish SPA ni..syok dia p gigit2 kaki saya ni,hehe..Syok ni..Lepas 2 jam kmi balik p khemah kami,.hehe


MalamNya,kami buat barbeQ ni..sadap ikan n ayam dia..hehe..Nikmat ni makan d tepi sungai ramai2..Happy sangat dapat makan banyak2 owh,full ni..hehe..
Lepas makan kami ada games lagi ni,kami men malam c buta tapi ni berkaitan dengan IMAN..1 perkara saya pelajari d sana,bagaimana Mr SATAN@IBLIS mengoda manusia dengan kesenangan..manusia cepat tergoda dengan apa yg c Mr S tawarkan  dia juga sangat pandai menggunakan tipu helah ni,menjual nama pemimpin kita atau Tuhan ni..Betapa kita x sedar kita sudah jatuh bak kata pepatah 'SUDAH TERHANTUK BARU TERGADAH'.."SESAL DAHULU PENDAPATANNYA SESAL KEMUDIAN TIDAK BERGUNA"..fikir2kanla..renung2kanla hidup kita ni..TQ God mengajar saya mengerti n memahami sesuatu yang saya x sedari selama ini..


3RD DAY (21.08.2011)
Kami bangun lewat p mandi n bersiap2 mo beribadah..Di manapun kita berada kita ble buat 'Praise n Worship' x semestinya d church sahaja..syok2 kami beribadah c kambing2 datang ni maw p mendengar jg haha..lawak juga ni tapi dia mo bongkar 2 sampah owh..hehe..kena siram pakai air,betul2 kambing takut air ni..hehe..Lepas tu kami makan2 then kemas khemah time hujan2..main hujan Lagi nanana..syok Jugala..hehe..
Jam 3pm kami balik p church..hehe


Thank you God 4 the Great day n time..TQ my fellow Frenz..

~Today is The Day~

Nah,today is the day what we waiting 4..Survivor camp is coming at ulu Langat..Yahooo!!can wait to arrive there!!Hope all of our activity will going smoothly..God Bless Us!!
Later i tell the story ya about our camp there..Bubyez!!c u in 3 Days ar!!Love u guys!!

~Reflection~

Hello!!
Sambungan semalam ni.hehe..Bila saya fikirkan balik reflection tentang apa yang telah kami lakukan kelmarin,Saya dapat rasakan betapa Tuhan MENGASIHI anak2-Nya walaupun kita berbeza bangsa dan agama tapi kita tetap 1..Bukan 1 malaysia jak ada hehe..God help people by sending His children to the house..Begitu besar kasih-Nya akan kita,Tapi hanya kita yang x tahu bagaimana mo bagi respond..
Nah,Rupanyakan tadi c Pastor as our Leader that time dia bilang c Mak cik ni sebenarnya garang n kalau barang2 dia d kacau mesti dia marah tapikan yang pelikNya time kami p sana dia terima kami ni..Syukur juga dia terima kami tolong dia ni,senang hati bila orang benarkan kita lakukanNya asalkan dengan hati yang ikhlaskan..sangat2 berterima kasih ni..


"BUKAN KERANA HASIL USAHAMU ATAU KEBAIKANMU TETAPI KERANA KASIH KARUNIA-NYA".


~GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME,ALL THE TIME GOD IS GOOD!!"

~CommuNity Service~

Nah,tadi saya p buat amal dengan member2 church..kami p kasih bersih tu rumah orang..
Begini ceritanya, aunty 2 orang melayu pastu dia kena stroke sudah divorce dengan husband dia,diorang ada 2 anak girl n boy..Yang lelaki masih school then yg girl kerja sudah..Kecian ba 2 aunty macam tiada masa ni anak2 dia untuk dia..Dia terbaring jak d atas katil ni,huhu..macam ada bed sore sudah ni...Sabar jak tengok c aunty begitu owh..Kalau saja boleh tentu saja sudah saya tolong jaga tu..Tapi saya sendiri banyak Lagi mo buat tuk familyku ni..hehe
Now!Pasal rumah c aunty pula..Rumah dia kan apuuu susah mo cakap taw,bukan apala tapi memang macam2 bau yang kami terhidu ni..Lepas 2 banyak cockroach,saya x takut tapi geli la (imagine lipas bejalan d badan kita) hehe..Then itu kain2 bertaburan di bangku n basket besar ni..Dapur pula semak ni,makanan yg expired date pun masih d simpan ni..
Then Now!Sesi kemaskan rumah,hehe..Kami bagi2 la kerja masing2 ada d ruang tamu,dapur n toilet..
kerja saya lipat kain n kemas ruang tamu ni..syok juga lipat kain yang bertimbun ni macam rombengan@bundle hehe..Kipas dia macam x pena d kasih bersih berbulan2 punyala kotor..kecian juga ba,susah juga mo cakap ni..sudahla tandas dorang sumbat,sudah buat aduan tapi tiada tindakan ni..Selepas itu disaat2 kami sedang membersih ada ni orang ramai2 datang p tengok2 kami,dorang tanya kami ni dari UMNO ka or NGO haha,kami jawabla kami ni Suka2 Relawan!!kena ambil gambar Lagi,hehe...Senangnya dari hati..haha
Finally,siap juga akhirnya kami kemas 2 rumah..Sangat2 Tersangat puas hati bila dapat tolong orang kan..suka sangat ni,hati senang sekali!!!Gumbira!!


After that kami p makan,puasa setengah hari jak kami haha..kelaparan n kurang tenaga sudahkan..Syukur2 kami kena bawa p makan,haha..TQ Lord!
Then kami p melawat c Bro Peter member church kami d HUKM..Dia baru kena admit d ward urology ni masalah haematuria (kencing berdarah) and dia memang ada masalah kidney..Dia juga On haemodialysis..Kami p tanya khabar dia happy ni dia kami datang lepas tu kami Doakan dia..Semoga c God bagi dia kesihatan yang baik n cepat sembuh!Amen..


Lastly,kami pulang n p makan malam..Best ba dapat tolong orang!!Suka sangat!! ;)
KASIHILAH SESAMAMU MANUSIA, DOAKANLAH MUSUHMU DAN AMPUNILAH MEREKA!!!

MAY GOD BLESS US!!!

~Nah ni c Aunty~

~Before~

~Hahaha~

~Nah,at our Destination ady~

~Lipat Kain~ 

~Kemas meja Study~

~Take time~

~Cleaning~

~After Cleaning~

~FEEDING PROGRAME~

07 August 2011
Nah,this day our church had an activity at chow kit..we go there to feed the people who live at the streets or who need food not only to feed them but to observe how their life at the street..
i feel so sympathy n empathy 4 them,when we pray 4 them my tears suddenly come out..we don't know how good our God before we see it by our own selves..i feel so enjoying this time because we can show to them how much we care n love them..they also can know how important them to us or we appreciate them..because as we know people who lived at the street they don't know about love or they thinking of no HOPE 4 them in the world..that's why they need us to support them from back and the most important is to pray 4 them..
At there i meet people who work as a streetwalker(prostitute),drug addicted n many more..if u all wanna know more go and visit them la..hehe..try to ask them why they become like that??why they choose that way??why,why,why,why!!all is about Why!!!
thats all from there i learn how to appreciate people or food we eat..we need to finish it up because we don't know that people outside may need it more than us..TQ GOD 4 The Great Experience's!!

ALWAYS SAY A PRAYER (A.S.A.P)''

Nah,ni new story from me..On 3rd august 2011 is my flight to kL..at the same time my pocket money only rm25..i dont know what to do,i just keep quiet i didnt tell anyone only me n my mother know that..
But i just let all things happen with His Desire bha..I believe in Him n i know with this money i still can arrive here at cheras selangor..it is possible 4 us but in God there's Nothing Impossible..'He will lead us,if we let him do'..
my ticket to KL sentral Rm 10 only,after that i'm waiting 4 the KTM to bandar tasik selatan Rm1 only..
but at there i got attempted which is i'm waiting 4 the KTM 2 hours to lets all the Malay people to go in 1st..some more my phone Low battery owh then cant message or call anyone owh...just walk with his intention..
Then after that i take cab to segar perdana the fares Rm10.30..i still have Rm5 in my pocket..how wonderful the God works when we Lean back to Him..TQ God..i Believe in You..

Home aLone!

Nah 1 org d Rumah..

Apa sa patut buat ar..makan tido then tido mkn pas2 tgk tv then p mnm air pas2 mandi then x taw Lg pa mo buat,kaLo xda broadbaNd kwn sa ni confirm sa giLa ni..apuu..

Sebenarnya sa rindu ba maw balik sabah ni (Rindu sabah Tanah aiRku)..

Tp kan ada masalah problem ba dgn budget sa ni..huhu..

Mum sa pun cakap jgnla balik stay jak sana tp setengah tahun sudah sa x jmpa dorg owh..Rindu ba sama dorg,Dorg Rindu sa ka 2 ar??Sa Rindu ngan family sa ni..sgt2 rindu..sa RiNdu mo hug mum sa n main2 dgn dia,p shopping..mo Taw tha nice things i like 2 do wif ma mum is round2 in tha shop n ask her about tha dress or shirt i choose (I ask her if it is ok n ngam dgn sa)..Tp kan sa suka mum sa kaLo sa jauh mcm d KL kan then ada panty bru msti dia bgtaw sa n bLi utk sa (diam2 ar)..hehe

Sa d cni 1 org plus no family at all Lg 2..survive sendiri ba sa (kesian kan)..kaLo ada masalah moneypun diam2 bila memerlukan sangat baruLa sa minta dorg..sa Kesian Dad sa jauh ni keja utk kmi sekeluarga cri naFkah ni,datz y bLa dad sa call tya sa ok (sa jawap La ok biar x ok) kaLo dad sa tya ada duit bLnja Lg (sa jawapLa ada biar xda)..Tp kan hati seOrg bapa msti akan taw kaLo aNak dia perlukan duit or ada masalah ka..ada Connection kan mcm internet jg sLuruh duNia beconnect ni..hehe

Miz ma Dad so Much owh..huhu..

The End

~Ma DaYz sToRy~

Wake Up iN tHa MorNing wiF a Big sMiLe N gRateFuL HearT coz God stiL giVe me a cHaNce to sTaNd Here iN tHa eaRtH He cReaTed 4 uS..
TodayZ Ma HouseMate N cLassMate eXhort Me,tHey saiD ma Face LooKz Like so sTressFuL n iTs Not Like UsuaLLy..tHen I teLL tHem im Ok n im Not sTress MayB becoz i FeeL daMn sLeepy iN tHa moRNing!!And daTz tHa ReasoN Ma Face LiKe daTz..hehe
BuT i stiL tHink wat they Say n i asK ma seLF do I looK Like a stRess peRsoN..tHen,i aNsweR it in Ma HeaRt..Yup,u aRe but u KeeP iT insiDe..u DuN waNt tHey kNow u aRe sTress tHinkiNg oF uR FuTuRe..
Not oNLy daTz but iNcLuding aBout uRseLF N LJM..huhu..
BuT suDdeNLy,theRes a woRds daT reMinds Me
'NOT TO WORRIED ABOUT UR FUTURE,ABOUT WAT U EAT,ABOUT UR FINANCIAL PROBZ n BLA,bLa,bLa.
.'BecoZ GOD aLReady Have pLaN 4 U'..
oBserVe tHa BirDs at tHe sKy,No oNe gives tHa biRds eaT But its stiLL caN aLive N suRVive..Y Not u as a Human wHo got MiNd caN't do LiKe daT??
GoD Never giVes  a TriaL moRe tHan uR sTrengtH DeaR..ReMemBer tHatz..
HIS pLan MoRe tHaN uR pLaN deaR..

~WiF Ma BesTFReNZ~

~Diz is ma FReNz..Her Name MeRVyna & her sisTer Name Mary LoRaine..TheY goT TheiR owN NickName i caLL meRvyNa as Eng's & MaryLoRaine as LamPe..Diz Time We aT waTerFroNT KoTa kiNaBaLu Lepak tHere~

~aH,Ni La da c Lampe,datz wat aLL Her frenz or faMily caLL her..But i Like 2 DisTurb2 Her..i LiKe 2 caLL Her Mary oR LampiRat..hehe..sHe is KiNd n she got a sMooth heaRt (Lemah LembuT oRgNya)..sHe aLso a caRing peRsoN..But soMetimes cRazy..haha~

~Ha,acTuaLLy I Hav 4 fRenz wHicH is aLways B theRe wHen i NeeD them :)..tHa 1 wHo i didnT mentioN heR Name yet is Yim PoH Ling @ yim PuTut @ Ling2 XD..riTe Now sHe at PhiLipiNes coNtiNue-Ing heR stuDy,JauhKaN Da stuDy..hehe..we aLL Miz HeR so MucH~

~Ni TiMe we aLL LePak wiF ma Bro N ouR frenz..We Noty but goT miNd..haha~

~eRm,Diz Time We jusT fiNish hang Out be4 I weNt to KL..hehe,diz is Eng,u aLL waN 2 kNow she gain weigHt oleady owh,buT me sTiLL maiNtain huhu..so JeaLous But Happy XD..sHe is KiNd N Like 2 LauGh,But WheN sHe's LaugH coNfiRm aLL peoPLe iN tHa maLL caN heaRd iT..haha~

I feeL so gRaTefuL to tHa GOD coz giVe Me sucH a beauTiFuL & Kind fRenz..We sHare ouR haPPiNess togeTher..wHen 1 oF us goT probLem we wiLL tRy to soLve it togetHer..wHen 1 Of Us FaLL dowN,we wiLL LiFt Her uP..datZ waT freNz 4..We sHare N caRing 2 eaCh otHer..

u guys waN 2 kNow 'FreNz aRe OuieT aNgeLs' 4 uS..so apPReciaTe tHem K..

MaY GoD bLess aLL oF Us!! 

~BeaUTiFuL SuNDayZ~

Today is a Beautiful Sundays. Fill it with a big smile n Laugh...

Suddenly ma mind thinking of something. We always smile N Laugh here But How about the others country (People) which their country full with ruthlessly people N child abuser...

Here we Have Foods 2 Eat but Even we got it, we still duN know 2 appreciate & b gratefully. We still throw the Food...

There at Africa They always starving. When they got Food they share IT to each other n feels so grateful to the God... wHy duN we Do tHa saMe tHings??

~aLoNe & eMpTy~

aLoNe

I FeeL BoRed riTe Now..duN kNow waT 2 Do..iF im bored i wiL do sumTing tHa caN fiLL ma Time..
i wiLL eaT,dRinK,stuDy or WatCh Movie..BuT 2Day is diFfereNt at aLL..i do NothiNg at aLL..wHy?wHy?

eMpTy

My miNd emPty..duN kNow waT sHud i tiNk..i duN Like diz kiNd of FeeLiNg coz CaN maKe me Cry wiThouT puRpoSe owH..i Need someoNe to HeLp me bRing me Out fRom Diz eMptyNess!!

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~WiF Ma CRaZy HouseMate~

Say No DRiNk & dRiVe..Keep WaLKing!!!

~iS DaT gHosT~

~SweeTy FaCe'z~

This Is Tha begiNNing!!

Diz is Tha 1st Day n Time I sTart My BLog..stiLL bLuR.. :)